No one really knows our heartheaches ____ (Even I don't get my own...!)
CAUTION: MAY CONTAIN DEPRESSING SH*TS
I don’t why and I don’t have a clue how I got myself into this situation… I’m not even sure how I feel anymore and I don’t know how I’m supposed to convert them into words. All I know is that I feel like I’ve lost it. Whatever ‘it’ is. It’s just gone.
I don’t know..! I feel like no one will understand me. I feel like so much has changed in my life these past couple of years that it’s all coming rushing past me. I hate it. Change is inevitable but I don’t like how everything around me is changing. I don’t even get myself anymore. I’ve changed and I don’t think I like who I’ve become. What I don’t get is how people around me can stand being around ME? Sometimes I avoid even my closest friends because I see them so happy and I come into school feeling like crap… they deserve to be happy, to be laughing. It would be really unfair if was around them and my shitty aura would rub on them. To be honest, I don’t get how they can cope with something I’ve learnt to dislike.
I wake up every morning with an unexplainable feeling- it’s horrible… I hate waking up. I hate going to school. I hate coming home. I hate going to sleep. MEH?! It doesn’t make sense. I don’t make sense.