That must've been one of the scariest feelings I've ever felt =/
As a kid I was always in the hospital, always attached to a fluid drop because of a condition I had. Now, I never knew the actual medical name of it because it’s always been called "queck queck" around me… but I was told that I have spasms- like epilepsy.
This morning I woke up and I felt… so unbelievably dizzy. I didn’t even realise I got up till I found myself down stairs- my legs, my hands… my whole body was shaking. My head felt so light like air. I started to panick because the feeling felt very familiar and reminded me of when I was having one of my attacks… I somehow managed to get myself into the kitchen to eat something. It was difficult but the only thing that was running through my mind was, "This can’t happen. This can’t happen again. I can’t do this to Papa. I can’t do this to him… Mama please let me be okay…"
I recovered fully throughout the day, going into college with my hand still shaking like mad =/ It was one of the scariest feelings I’ve ever had! And I can honestly tell you I’ve learnt my lesson! >_< … hopefully
I really really really (x infinity and beyond) hope that we become even closer- as friends- and that you don’t leave like every other dude I became close with :( It scares me that one day you’ll just disappear like them but I guess the fact that we’ve come this far (further than any other guy mates I’ve had), is a good sign right? :)